A Long Way to Drown

Album Art from Tell Me What You See Vanishing and I Will Tell You Who You Are; Chained to the Bottom of the Ocean

I don’t know what’s going on.
I don’t know how to explain. 
I could say that it feels as if I’m    floating

uncomfortably,
ungrounded,
and   untethered.


in a sea, and then



falling.

         ever, so       slowly.

until the last light from the sun 
streams through the renaissance of an outstretched
hand
reaching up 
one last time for

some  thing...
     some  thing     beautiful, but

      some  thing    is dying,
in   side.

some  thing is being born,
out   side

but, I can’t quite make it out.

it’  s dark
in here. 

and I'm trying to   get 
back
      out   there.

beyond the veil I once pierced 
a dagger through,
opened it

     for you.

but now, it seems,



they've shut the door. 
my body coming to rest with the debris
                            as a   bed
on the sea's floor. 

a    carcass
to be fed upon once more...but,

no

     no   more. 

I said   no  more.